>It is appaling
>I can’t believe I’m checking this dumb chat while I have a girl in the bed asking what I am doing
>The commitment I am showing is astronimical
I came back from a nightclub with a girl, my computer was literally running, It was opened on discord, I saw Rak pinged me so I thought I would take a quick look, saw Rak’s comment about platinum and Python, I saw the game log a and then I saw alex & adhd booting with 11-7 income lead. and then I got angry cause it’s just ridiuclous and then I made the worst comparison of my life [🤦](https://emojipedia.org/person-facepalming/#:~:text=Emoji%20Meaning,to%20the%20Picard%20Facepalm%20meme.) trying to say I should be the one booting because of xyz. I am not that pathetic to brag about girls for the love of god, I’m not that bad! What a disaster.
Actually I think she asked me what was wrong, and I told her to shut up saying she wouldn’t understand. Then I got mad at myself realising I was putting a stupid clan league game over a one night stand. then this method of thinking just created bad outcomes. Oh well. That is it. I’m gonna have a shower and cry.