I feel like my heart is breaking every day and life is filled with so much hardship and sorrow and longing and grief and it’s all so much to hold in one body and there is a lot I have known and a lot I have seen and sometimes I don’t know if I can move forward and sometimes I don’t believe in what lies ahead but being in this body and moving through this world and loving and laughing and sobbing and screaming and kissing and seeing is all the most beautiful thing I will ever know , because it was all meant for me. I was meant to be me and I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the whole world and I will continue to run and run as fast as I can until I can’t breathe just so my eyes can behold the red and purple sunset and just so I can tell u I love u and know it to be true . I will never give up on myself and I know there are infinite wonders that lie ahead