It’s the hypothetical penis, the ideology; the concept of the penis or multiple penises as objects of phallic fascination and the engagement with which that inspires and informs that which is gay. But the contemplation upon that of which is gay forces one to reflect upon the self—the id and the ego—and the penis of the self and it’s relationship with other penises, and despite the likeness and kinship, it is a contemplation of the dissonance between that and the demarcation of the self’s penis and the penises of others to avoid the arbitrary identifications as marks of shame. Following this I recollect the hedgehogs dilemma: the longing for connection and relationship, but also the fear of being hurt and hurting others, and so one of the choices of the individual may be to resort to suffering in loneliness.
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